Nobody is Nobody.
I suddenly found that unique concept. Like Virtue of the Vicious, this aphorism (if you want to categorize it as aphorism) is an impromptu. I didn't plan to search it. Neither it is a nonsense quotations.
I think I will insert that idea into the next part of my poor story. Why poor? I figure out that my English is still not that fluent. I see that fact in my compositions' grades. My eyes are accustomed to sentence structure and vocabulary errors. Hope that I won't see many flaws in my next compositions. But who can guess?
Or maybe.... that random aphorism above isn't an impromptu at all. If you're a vivid reader of Pramoedya Ananta Toer, you'll discern. I'm not Toer's hysterical fans nor civil left activist who devote to his utopian humanity concept in the society. I prefer Plato's cave. Nevertheless, if you ever take a look at This Earth of Mankind, you will notice that being in the society is a fallacy. But being nobody in society is also a fallacy. So, being nobody isn't condusive, thus nobody should be nobody. See my point? Maybe you'll say my statement is a fallacy due to random and careless reasoning and lack of evidences.
More random stuff. When I was waiting for 5 months from June to November before I went to Singapore, I entered SMA Aloysius BN (my previous school's senior high). I had an exiciting 2 and a half months there before I decided to quit and clear all the slate. Not all of the memories born from those 2 1/2 months are scintilliating, but I insist to place that period of time as one of the best days of my lives (I adapt this term from Queen's song). I could slack everyday; I never studied but I still did my exam quite well. But here, in Singapore? Like I said, my English! Moreover, my troubles increase with Malay. More words and pains. That's the joy in learning something new. That's what adaptation is.
What shall I do with my sweet... I mean scintilliating memory of those SMA days? I'll try to write them in my blog. Certainly I will change the names and the settings to avoid conflicts and controversies. I will put no special purpose in making this thing. I just want to reminisce and practise. My writing depends on intuition entirely. Except assignment or assesments, I never set a particular target and plan. I just want to express myself in this foreign language. By the way, I once wrote in English before, about 2 years ago. My English was far worse. I published that worthless story under a pseudonym name.
Go back to the real topic!! I just can't stop my mind wandering everywhere. Maybe I belong to my fantasy. I really like the moment I'm spending time in my own world. Just relieving from the onerous real world. But that doesn't mean I will escape forever. I'm not an escapist; I just have passion about art. Is it kismet that brings me to be like this? Or just random chance?
What I really want to say is (I have used the wrong English once again; how can I write the word "say" if my communication partner is an Internet user and/or probably an Internet-addict too that reads but doesn't listen to my words?) that I will stop my blogging activity until the holiday. I have to concentrate on CCT, CA, SPA, and their other friendly brothers. For me, test is a test, no matter how great it affects GPA and even my perfomance in the school.
At last, I'm lost now! It means that this random article will meet the end.
Nobody is Nobody.